Gap year lesson #1

Looking back at the beginning of my gap year, I see a confused girl that wanted to change the world, but wasn't able to find her place. Lost somewhere between perfectionistic life expectations and a desire to live a creative, adventurous and fulfilling life.

Maybe I wasn't able to define it that times, but what I was doing and didn't realise, was that even how much I hate „boxes“ and things that are limiting you, I was searching for a box to fit in. Where every piece of me would fit. A place where I would belong completely. Or something what would make me complete, what would make me “normal”.

Till I understood that nothing like this exists.Till I understood that belonging somewhere is a state of heart and mind, not a geographical thing. That belonging to one place or to one person or a group will not make me complete. Because I´m complete already.

So what actually happened during my gap year is, that the journey that was meant to be a journey to find myself somewhere out, turned to be a journey in the middle of my heart. All I needed to do, was to look inside and to become grateful for who I am. To love the wild gentle heart, the spontaneous creative soul and the perfectionist mind that are building my personality. To love the way I see world and to stop judging myself for having different life expectations. To accept my own uniqueness, my own journey. And simply to take time, so all the pieces of the mosaic could come together to create a bigger picture.

In the middle of this chaos and confusion, out of my comfort zone, mostly alone or always with someone else, somewhere else .. I´ve found what I was searching for.

Me and vision for my life.

There are many things I could talk about, many things that I´ve learned, but I don't want this to sound like some conclusion. The story is still being written, we´re learning and growing our all lives. Just wanted to tell you that if you´re kind of lost like I was: Don´t worry about it! Sometimes you first need to get lost to find yourself. Don´t be afraid of taking steps that you´re afraid of, that seem to be pretty unlogical from the perspective of other people. Listen to your heart and intuition and do not give up on you. If you feel like there's something what needs to be changed in your life, change it. Life is too short to build things that do not matter. ;)

Have a nice day, guys.